Dad there is not a day goes by when I don't think about you, in happy times I sit and wonder what would you be saying and see that smile on your face. In recent Times Phil has gone from strength to strength with becoming fire chief and being awarded the queens medal, I have thought many times how you feel and what you would say and that beam I see on your face rips me apart as I know how much you would have wanted to share all that with us all. All our kids have grown so much and most are adults now, they have grown knowing stories of you and we are for ever sharing memories with them. Mom is mom and gets through each day with half her heart missing, She has learned to live like this and misses you dearly but I think we do alright by her xx Our sue is having a testing time as you probably know, but she is managing (god knows how) I know you are walking right beside her and daz and even tho she has many around her I would like to bet she lies awake at night crying (like me know) looking to you for comfort and support xxx But dad though everything I don't think anyone has needed you more than our les right now !!!!! He is going through a life changing ordeal and I really don't think it has hit him yet. I really don't know what to do to make things right, We are all doing what we think we should be doing and being there for him in every way possible but I can't shake the feeling that even with us all around he feels so alone !!! Who does he tell he is scared ? Who does he feel he can rely on ? Who does he cry to ? This is one of those times he needs you, like he has before but can't help feeling he needs you more this time x I know again you will be with him constantly and I hope he knows that too in the Times he is feeling lonely. Love and miss you dad today and always xxx